ok. nothing much happened lately except
getting conned by the toilet man =( how dumb can i again...
i got saiful emo just now.. like i did to kenny n saiful before around this time..
saiful actually agreed to go out, than i had to tell something which was a message from kenny which i tink he didnt mean it, after that, saiful just got emo n said im not going.. sorry kenny! sorry saiful! =( i really am..
why does it all happen like tis... everytime i say something, it ends up in a fight/argument or someone ends up getting hurt or turns emo.. Why!!! Why!!!!! everything happens beecause of Me!! it not only happens to my friends... it happens with my family too... why!!!! seriously, it is fucked up..
I just hate my life... maybe all would have been better if i had not met anyone of you.. best if i was not born to this world.
O level results are coming this week... my parents and sis n aunt's n unlces have high hopes on me.. that i would get good grades and go to a JC and get that A level. But! i had to disappoint my dad the most by saying, im going Poly and not JC..
now my fear is, will let everyone down by doing badly... right now, tinking positively or negatively does not matter because the scripts are marked n calculated. i do Not want to repeat my O levels!!! Nooo. I am not letting them down. IF, i ever disappoint my family again, i will NEVER forgive myself... well.. most of the times i wonder what kind of person am i.. i was always ruin things wen all is going fine.. wadever... now, just enjoy this song n have a good day...

Rihanna- Cry



Lil Rain- Adore You ( cant seem to find the original video)